:: Purposeful Death Overhead ::

March 29th, 2006

Went walking in the rain with Stefan after the weekly "House" gathering at Liz's. Simply wonderful. Rain is... life's rejuvination. And interesting enough, fire, whilst it destroys, also allows for the possibility of growth. Is it not amazing that Water and Fire, two extremes both aid one goal?

Magnificant.

:: Alina 12:05 AM

March 28, 2006

I think sad thoughts as I play happy music...

Currently I'm in that zone of depression that comes from listening to 60's ballads, eating chocolate, and popping midol every few hours. You ask what the former does to help the latter? It doesen't. The music just depresses me further. But sometimes you need to feel depressed. That, or hugged and/or cuddled with. I just need someone to hold me.

Saturday night Gittel and I went to see Ragtime Black Maskers style. The staging was phenomenal, the show's long but amazing but everyone was off pitch! Ahh! Such a weird experiance watching from the House (and paying $8 to get in!) I was waiting for Crystal to do "Your Daddy's Son," Crystal who had the part of Sarah before they picked the show. Crystal whose been in Mads since freshman year. Crystal whose been getting leads since sophomore year. Crystal this, Crystal that. Crystal sang it terribly. Terribly! She screwed up the words, her tone was just ... terrible. And I got so much satisfaction from it. An indescribable amount. I know, im terrible. Also chatted with Sam during intermission, and ran into John. I didn't feel like an idiot [having come to college i realized how much people in hs despised me]. Who knows? These people (the lunch group im specifically referring to) may one day become my friends once more. But it felt good. Especially afterward, when i ran into Jose and we ended up at Silver Diner sitting with Andrea, Alona, and a few others. It was so relaxing - i can admit, i had more fun at Silver than i've ever... Also ran into Eddie and some '04 ers at the diner. More fun. Truely a splendid night. Truely.

You know, that made feel better...just writing those happy memories. I'm still depressed, and somewhat angry? I dunno. Urg, Stefan's such an ass sometimes.

:: Alina 1:46 AM

March 13, 2006

I hate you.

:: Alina 2:48 AM

March 8th, 2006

*hums*

Mary Lou, the Milking Maid
Had a true love so they said...

Took him to the borough fair

and so they said...
She left him there.

:: Alina 12:53 AM

March 6th, 2006

What Your Songs Say About You
Put Your iPod On Shuffle
First Song::
"My Baby You" Marc Anthony
Second Song::
"Since you've been Gone" Weird Al
Third Song::
"Around the World" by ATC
Fourth Song::
"My Immortal" by Evanescence
"Fifth Song::
"Dragonstei Di Tei" by Ozone
Sixth Song::
"Hands " by Jewel
Seventh Song::
"House of the Rising Sun" by The Animals
Eighth Song::
"Try to Remember" from the Fantastics
Ninth Song::
"Scarborough Fair" by Simon and Garfunkel
Tenth Song::
"Lucky" by Bif Naked

Now Let's Analyze
When Did You First Hear Song 3?::
On the radio
Which Of Your Friends Does Song 9 Fit?::
me, actually... i can be kind of an introvert sometimes (you wouldn't know it, but its true!)
What Memory Does Song 6 Remind You Of?::
lying in bed, after a good cry...probably when i'd listen to it...
Who Is Song 10 By?::
Bif Naked
How Did You Come Across Song 5?::
Friends told me about it, and i randomly found i'd downloaded it ....
Is Song 9 A Love Song?:
not really, more of a melancholy piece about the lack thereof
Why Do You Like Song 1?::
got a great melody, and very sweet and romantic
Is Song 7 A Good Make-Out Song?:
...naw
Which Song Is Best For You And Your Crush?::
...I'd have to say "Lucky" is the closest, though it ocillates between that and "my immortal"
What Do Songs 4 and 8 Have In Common::
both are slow, and deal with memory and the past
Do You Like Song 3 For It's Meaning?:
not really...its got a great tune
Is Song 6 A Song For Friends Or For Lovers?::
friends
Which Song Is Your Favorite?::
They've all got a place in my heart, but "lucky" right now

:: Alina 8:21 PM