:: Purposeful Death Overhead ::

[ Lester Narrating ]
I had always
heard your entire Iife fIashes...
in front of your eyesthe second before you die.

First of all,that one second...
isn't a second at all.
It stretches on forever,
Iike an ocean of time.

For me, it was
Iying on my back...

at Boy Scout camp,watching falling stars.

[ Gunshot ]

And yellow
Ieaves from the mapIe trees...

that Iined our street.

[ Gunshot ]

Or my grandmother's hands
and the way her skin...
seemed Iike paper.

[ Distant Gunshot ]

And the first timeI saw my cousin Tony's...
brand-new Firebird.


[ Panting ]

And Janie.

And Janie.

[ Gasps, Sobs ]

[ Panting ]

[ Grunts, Sobs ]

[ WaiIing ]

And... CaroIyn.

I guess I couId be pretty pissed off
about what happened to me,

but it's hard to stay mad whenthere's so much beauty in the worId.
Sometimes I feeI Iike I'm seeing it all at once and it's too much.

My heart fills up like a balloon
that's about to burst.
And then I rememberto reIax...
and stop trying
to hoId on to it.

And then it fIows
through me Iike rain,

and I can't feeI anythingbut gratitude...
for every singIe moment...
of my stupid IittIe Iife.

You have no idea what
I'm taIking about, I'm sure.

But don't worry.

You will someday.

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